So, yeah, I decided to start a blog just for the sake of having one. I’m a kid full of purpose, you see?
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hen I was thinking of what to write, the first thing that came to mind was about Love. Hey! Don’t blame me, I’m a teenager and it’s a trend. J Yet, I can’t really grasp the main reason why it’s Hot to have a boyfriend/girlfriend at this time. We’re still young anyways and the possibility that the one you are with now will be the same person pledging with you in front of the altar n years from now is near to nothing. Nil. Zero.
Maybe it’s about the experience, we tend to experiment and we are full of adventures, right? Or maybe it’s because of peer pressure? (Geez, I feel like a KJ. But I’d like to think of myself as rational. J)
It’s not really that I am like this because I haven’t had a boyfriend. I already had one. ALMOST. J But it was never official. He was the only guy I gave a chance to, because, what can I say? He’ HOT! And may I add, SMOKIN’, SIZZLIN’, and STEAMIN’ HOT. At the time, most of the girls from my class were all over him. Besides, he’s humorous. J The other guys, I turned down even before they had the chance to ask me out. I’m not cruel! I just like to think that I’m being good to them by not giving them any false hope. Besides, I am not allowed to have a boyfriend, my parents are strict and they want me to concentrate on my studies. So, technically, I’m still one of the NBSBs. And I’m proud to be one! J Anyways, he did something so awful and horrible that hurt me big time, (ouch!). We were not official, I know! BUT STILL! He should know that once he courted someone, or WHILE he’s courting someone, he should be loyal to her. After all, the courting stage is when we, girls, weigh if a guy’s worthy or not, right?? J The moment I learned about what he’d done, I lashed out on him. I texted him using all the curse words I know at the time. “You jerk… You’ll pay for this….” (Insert many many many many many colorful words in there, but I’d like to keep my blog PG13J) It was summer vacation and we were apart, but if I had known sooner, he might be sent to the hospital paralyzed. But I never cried, I thought that he wasn’t worth my tears, and it’s crazy… and futile. No use crying over spilled milk, hey? The funny thing was that his reply was as fast as the speed of light. And he called me soooooooooooooooooooooo many times that I turned my cellphone off. I didn’t want to talk to him at the time because I believed that our fight would only get bigger. After all, an angry man closes his ears and eyes and opens his mouth.
After that, I never really believed in love like the ones on the movies and fairy tales. Hey! Don’t get me wrong, I believe in love in general, just not the ones I just mentioned. There’s a reason why movies only last for two hours and why fairy tales aren’t true. J It’s rare to find those kinds of love, the ones that will sweep you off your feet, and that’ll leave you head over heels, just ONLY for that one person. They’d like to make us believe that they are just found in every corner. Unfortunately, earth is a sphere. But, I know, somehow, somewhere, deep inside me, the part of me that’s still a child, still wishes to be fetched by a knight in shining armor and have a happily ever after. J
You may want to know what happened to us, or him. I guess I made it perfectly crystal clear that he, now, doesn’t stand even a single chance with me. But he still called non-stop for three days straight, neither receiving any replies to his messages nor answer to his calls. I’d like to give him credits for that. That boy just never tires. It’s not that I despise or loathe him, the truth is, I already forgave him the day after I lashed out and made a mock letter with all my frustrations, anger and hatred on him written there. And voila! I’m as good as new! I don’t hold grudges, I don’t know why. I just don’t. J Sometimes, I get frustrated with myself that I can’t hate someone, but I guess it’s a good thing. (They say forgiveness is like setting a prisoner free, and then finding out that the prisoner was you. I think that’s trueJ) Hey! Don’t just sit there with your mouths hanging open, I’m no saint. The truth is that I really really want him to pay. (yay! three cheers for sweet revenge!), but, I believe in good old karma. It will take care of him. J In the meantime, I want to play him; he can’t get off as easily as that. J (Yeah! Go girl!) The fourth day, pity took over me, so I finally texted him. He pleaded and pleaded to know what he’d done to make me that mad. Before the day ended, I gave up and told him. Again, that boy just never tires. I won’t tell you what it was, but *hint hint*, I’d just like to think that he’ll always be a boy and an adventurous and extremely curious one at that. But I immediately told him I forgave him already so he won’t feel half bad. J
Presently, we still come across one another. Oh, the disadvantages of going to the same school! But, I still say hi and smile to him whenever.
I will never ever forget what he did. That, my dearests, will remain a mystery for you and another well- hidden secret for me. J
5/2/2011 11:09:06 PM
